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today was an amazing day.
long yet fulfilling.
the fact that i actually only slpt at 4plus in the morning,and woke up at 7plus.
3hrs of slp? and yet im not feeling a single bit of tiredness.
maybe it's because i prayed for strength. haha. x)

got practical experiment for fyp today
supposed to meet in school at 10am, but im still at home at 1015?
hmm think that's the bad thing abt staying too near school
no sense of urgenty. -shakes head-
doing prac with saul and azri is quite fun thou.
at first, al i tot was "malay guys?"
now think its me who is bullying them. lalala~
prac is really tedious.
imagine,
preparing for the experiment requires 20min. includes the preparation of solutions, and the changing of the membrane (which is the worse thing throughout the experiment)
for doing the experiment alone requires another 20min.
clearing up requires 15min.
and im repeating this procedure over and over again.

then had project evaluation test.
30% of the whole module, 3 questions.
doesnt it seem scary?
and the fact that there is 10 parts to every question and al the parts are interrelated.
overall think i did well la.at least im able to answer all of them.
muz thank ppl like chenli,jiahui,rubez and carolyn who really prayed for me for this test.
it muz be the power of prayer that everything went so smoothly.
and not forgetting, my own hard work
praise myself for that! and definitely praise God for that!
reminds me of wad pst kong said "hard work is the only way to success"
yeah! and im starting to believe so much in this statement.

went fellowshipping with ppl from diff places.
which includes myself, rubez, meiping, wanlin, carolyn, chenli, yangxuan, hongbin
if u realise, its 7 guys and 1 guy. POOR HONGBIN
went to food republic to eat dinner then continued to shopping
went to this shop which sells alot of formal clothings.
rubez was forced to try onto 2 of them. and chenli 1.
chenli so funny, she wore a dress over a dress. haa
CHENLI'S SO PRETTY TODAY!
wore a white dress that made her look so elegant.
yeah i love my DARLING!
k.time to b back on track
while al the gers were havin fun with the dresses, poor hb was staring at the person making pizza in the restuarant.
then im so bad still go disturb him.
after that we went to isetan to continue shopping, and once again the poor hb was walking in circles, sighing...
dismissed! all went home, remaining rubez me n yangxuan.
went cine watch rubez with her well-known para skills.
acc yangxuan eat mac then went home.

wah.its almost 2am in the morning
so amazing.cos most of time i stay up in the night n use the com
but today, im STUDYING!and yet im not tired.
wad a miracle.
maybe is because i noe that ppl are praying for me, for my incoming test
and because God provided me with the wisdom and strength.
im gonna do well in my test, and b a great testimony and glorify Him.
how wonderful is our Father in Heaven.
i'll praise His name always!
Jesus Christ is my strength.
He is good yesterday,today, and forever.

Take all of me
I give You my all for all of You
Move in Your power
Open the heavens Lord today

Take all of me
Make us Your light for all to see
Change this world we live in
Let Your harvest in
Let Your harvest in

Take all of me for all of You
All consuming fire
Take all of me for all of You
You're my heart's desire

finally im done with my blog.
took so long before i decided to make one.
and im so proud of myself cos i actually figured it out by myself (:
like wad carolyn told me, i gotta be independent n stop depending on others.
by being independent i really can get to noe wad my abilities are,
and i really can do more things then i tot i could!
thank god for al this abilities!

have been so busy with so many things recently that realli got me to think.
thank god for great frenz in my life that really help me n there to encourage me.
chenli, carolyn, rubez, jiahui, zhiyan...
they are the best bro n sis that i can ever have.
i wanna noe al of them better
the only way to spend more time with them and be interested in their lifes. (:

its time for me to grow up and stop being childish n stop thinking of childish stuff.
i wanna grow stronger in the Lord! i need more faith in many things.
i needa trust on His word n His promises. n lift all my problems and burdens to Him.
i wanna make an impact in my cell group, in building the unity and bond among the ppl
n239 is a family. so really gotta link our hearts together.
this would only come back to one conclusion.
that is i needa read the bible more, and PRAY more
cos there is power in prayer! yeah!

certain things in my life i noe i have to let go.
and yet i really dunno how to.
i missing my babiee so much. so many things i wished to tell him but i cant.
everything is like a foolish thinking of my own.
i noe that i can nv be with him. what am i or who am i to be beside him?
im juz a small christian, in the process of growing.
but he's gotta be a cell group leader soon. its impossible.
SPIRITUAL DIFFERENCE is like so great. how m i supposed to catch up?
everyday having to face him in class seems to be a torture to me
and all i can do is swallow all of this down my throat and take it as nothing's happening.
im always sitting somewhere behind u, juz to notice al of ur movements.
how i wished i could tell u on ur face that u needa FOCUS!
stop slping in class, stop ponning lessons, stop playing dota during lessons
change a group of frenz that will help u to study.
start paying attention in class.
there's so many things i noe cos i care.
cos u're so special to me.

so many times i ask God
"y r u doing this to me, noeing that i'll be so hurt?"
"y muz u place us together for so long and speak to him abt our break-up?"
it really puzzled me!
esp when bro mj spoke to me abt u ytd.
i was like "wad?"
y out of no where, i dun rem toking this topic to u for the past half a year?
and bro mj said "meiyin, forget about jeff."
got a new information today
im doing my EIC test with wenda n JEFF!
y is it him again? haven i been trying al i could to avoid him
God, wad are u doing, wad r u hinting to me?
i tot the members in the group are picked randomly?

nah. i needa focus on my other stuff.
i do believe that there is a purpose for everything in my life.
God will nv place sth that i cannot overcome.
as long as u r happy, i'll be.
as long as u r happy, i'll forget abt all my hurts.
juz to noe that u r doing well.

think its time i go and study for my test tml!
3 chpts, 37 pages.
God shall bless me in my test. haha.
and it's He who will provide me with the strength and the wisdom!
and for everything, i'll give thanks... (^-^)v