disintegrate

i told myself that i will never wanna do decisions that i'll regret one day.
looking situations are different periods of life, im not sure whether im regreting.
sometimes it just seems i dun really know myself.
im kinda a complicated person.

come, you tell me, wad kinda person m i.
:X

all this while, i cant make up my mind whether anot to close down this blog.
blogging is not really a part of my lifestyle.
but my current situation makes me wanna blog.

once again, i feel as thou im draining my life away.
staying home and doing nothing makes me sick.
im bored, really bored.
in the midst of looking for a new job in this bad economy.
workload suddenly seems alot for a low paid job.

all day long, i just couped in my small room.
chatting with ppl, playing some games, watching some show.
yet im not satisfied.
im not happy with wads going on right now.
i desperately wanna go out and work on something.

man, sometimes God puts us thru hard times to strength us.
and i believe im really going thru one now.
i needa a really big breakthrough.
i dun wanna live a life like this.
there's so much out there.
praying hard for that miracle to happen.

there are times like this where your friends just seem too busy for you.
there are times like that where everything just seems wrong and doesnt go your way.
i guess i just gotta stay strong, and believe in Him.

God, im crying out to you.