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finally, one entire week of trauma is over.
p5 camp is over.
yes and the zoo trip is over.
the zoo trip has gotten me at least 30 mosquito bites on my legs within 1.5hr.(im serious!!!)
at one time, i could like see 4 mosquitoes land on my leg.
so i was trying my best to kill as many as possible.
i was located at the garden pavillion.
thou the place has good view, toilets, and is a good resting place.
but its infested with mosquitoes as it is so near the drains and ponds.
luckily managed to get insect repellent from one of my pupils, otherwise i wont be able to imagine how my leg wil have been after i left that place.
most prob it would have been totally disfigured.

last week happened to be one of my most terrible week.
in terms of physically, emotionally and spiritually.
too many things were going on at the same time.
too much for me to handle.
fell ill and managed to earn myself a day of rest for me.

emotionally wise, i had some issues with jia.
thankfully it is somewad settled between us.
just that we are still waiting for mj' reply.
other than that, everything is back to normal.
really thank those who were there to support me thru this tough period, esp my cg ppl.
i know i din really share, cos i just din wan to get so many ppl involved.

it felt really bad knowing that you are about to lose something that mean so much to you.
like wad they always say.
we will only learn to treasure the things that we have only when we lose them.
maybe i just need to learn to appreciate more.
always i told myself that i must be a strong girl.
i'll learn to go thru things all by myself.
apparently its so tough, i must learn to share.
i must learn to communicate more, and understand more.
listen more too.
im still in the process of learning. =]

woot! saturday i went to the ZOO!
for work? with another 4 of my school teachers.
admission is free. heehee.
we were there to recce for our P5 camp that is coming up this week.
cos we will be playing amazing race there.
i'll be one of the gamemaster.
thank God that my location is rather good.
with tons of fans, and for my convenience, the toilet.
my game is actually very simple, as long as the pupils coordinate with each another.
its those kinda groundsheet then 15 ppl gotta squeeze into it.
then 1/2 a groundsheet, 9 ppl gotta squeeze into it.
and 1/4 groundsheet, 6 ppl gotta squeeze into it.
that about it. =]

we walked and walked to look for the location of the different stations.
and this time i guess we almost completed walking the entire zoo.
when everything was done, we headed to kfc for a bite, and some discussion by our boss.
left the place at almost 250.
rushed down to service.
luckily got two teachers send me.
they were so nice that they sent me right in front of the church gate.
thank God for them.

after service i and jia headed to clementi, to make his specs.
chose a sporty kinda specs.
then also went to cut hair.
my hair looks so terrible. ARGHHH.
didnt expect it to look this way.
i'll probably head for another haircut soon.

yes i managed to catch ironman ytd.
the show is quite good la.
it lasted about 2 hours.
the bad thing about it is that the introduction is too long.
then the exciting bad becomes too short.
but on the overall, its quite detailed.
good movie to catch. =]

currently in school, seated in the HOD room blogging.
im like so boreddd.
all the teachers went for contact time meeting.
i escaped.

this morning was quite dumb.
i was so tired that i had to force myself out of bed.
then took bus and head to school.
but then, i slept on the bus and missed my busstop.
ended up in some weird place that i dunno where im at.
so i alight and board another bus from the opposite side.
initally was supposed to reach school at 8, in the end i only reached at 9.

the moment i stepped into the school, my busy day started.
had to do the nafa test for the pupils, which lasted for 2days, ytd and today.
for me, im taking the shuttle run station.
the feeling is very different sitting there as the teacher and as the pupil running.
all of them were like so nervous.
and most of them didnt do very well for this station.
there are quite a few interesting funny postures that some pupils have when they are running.
i couldnt help but laugh.

yes so today was the last day for all the 5stations.
next up, there's still the 1.6km run, which we predicted that there will be quite a number of failures.
followed by the P5 camp 3days before school ends.
holiday must faster come then my workload will be lightened.

heard from the general office that during the holiday, we'll only need to work half day everyday.
and the best thing is that we still get our full pay.
whee.!!
and i wanna go malaysia KL! anyone wanna accompany me?
then got a staff trip up on cruise.
i wanna get out of singapore! =]

as for now, im going to take a nap first.
then probably head for lunch with my clique when the teachers meeting is over.
bye!

today was a rather different day for me.
most of my closer ppl in school from the different cliques are not around.
they are either on mc, or on leave, or exam leave, etc.
life is so boring without them around.
thank God there's still fir!
he practically entertain me for almost half a day.
then i was supposed to do my monthly report.
but i stopped after doing for half an hour.
arghh. i hate monthly reports.

so my day just went on and on.
after which played basketball with the new school basketball team.
its mostly made up by P4 boys.
they seem like that they still need alot of training before they can step out of the school.
alot of snatching balls, hugging ppl, throwing ball to opp team, etc.
playing with them is really like exercising my legs, cos half the time im just running around the court.
everyone wants to play solo.
apparently my role is just to help them to catch the ball and pass.
so that they can learn how to score by themselves.

yes thats with the pupils.
next up, with the teachers.
some of the teachers agreed to play badminton after school.
so there we are, 6 of us. 4 guys, 2 girls.
im like the lousiest among them all.
im never good in badminton anyway. haha.
they just smack almost all the balls.
there's one game whereby i literally stand there doing nothing cos the balls are not within my reach.
i tried going for them, but all failed.
its ok. all the guys are professionals, so they are really good!
but its really really fun.
hmm i must try harder the next time.

boo came to school to look for me.
its like so far but he still came.
anyway thanks boo.

thank God for another great day.!!! =]

HAPPY BELATED MOTHER'S DAY!!!
hope all mothers enjoyed your wonderful day yesterday.
MUMMY I LOVE YOU! <33
MUMMY I MISS YOU!
hmm a couple of years has past, and i still cant get over certain things.
many times i tried telling myself that i have to let go, but its so difficult.
guess many will understand if they were in my shoes.
haha. seriously i dread mother's day every year.
if i can, i'll avoid.

sat was mother's day service.
i didnt manage to attend.
not cause i was trying to avoid, but i really had something on.
there was this stupid discussion thing that was made compulsory by moe.
thou its compulsory, there're still people who din turn up.
in my opinion, its just too boring.
i have better things to do than to attend such stupid discussion.
so dun ask me wad was said during the discussion, cos literally i wasnt listening.

back to mother's day service.
heard service was super good that day.
my cg member, jeffrey went up to share his testimony abt his mum.
and his mum was saved that very day. praise the Lord!
think he shared on sth like how his mum never fail to be there for him even when he was in prison.
whether rain or shine, whether she were to fall, she will always visit him.
his testimony actually touched many.
too bad i wasnt there to witness it.

after everything, i went down to jurong west to fellowship with my members.
managed to watch Speed Racer at JP.
the movie was really good. storyline is good.
the entire movie was mainly animation.
wad i didnt expect was the movie lasted for almost 2.5hours.
its worth the watch la.
do catch it soon.!

ooo. i just realised i haven been blogging for AGES.!!!
ever since i changed my job i haven been blogging.

yes. i have changed my job to working in princess elizabeth primary school.
till now, it should have been 3 months there already.
teacher? half yes half no.
admin staff? half yes half no.
hmm basically im hired there to help the teachers with the CCA and PE stuff.
the name of my post is rather interesting.
-CCA EXECUTIVE
i know the name sounds exactly nice.
but it isnt as nice as it seems.

coming into this school has really allowed me to see how working life is really like.
a place that with politics, a place with tons of backstabbing, etc.
its really unpredictable cos here you see someone smiling at you, yet behind the walls he is stabbing you real hard.
hmm i know how terrible it feels, cos i have been stabbed a few times for things that are not true.
and the next moment you have to treat as thou nothing happened when we meet.

nevertheless, there is always good people to a story.
i have a group of people that i get along real well.
those are the people that we can feel free to do and say the things openly.
we go thru good times and tough times together.
thank God for these people, for they make my life really happy in school.
people who is there to encourage me and support me all the time.

my superior is HOD/PE.
he is a superrrr nice person.
when i have been arrowed, he will stand up for me.
when i have problems, he is there to help me solve.
he is practically the best friend i have in school.
someone that i share everything with.
now imagine, he helped me with my major project that im supposed to complete.
which boss will actually stand in the gap for others.
imagine again, he came to apologize to me for giving me too much work and making me stress.
which boss will say sorry cos he gives you work.
with him around, i feel so blessed.

i think God has been really good to me.
putting the various ppl in my life to guide me.
thank You. =]
i pray tat things will get better.
i pray that i can change the lifes of many around me.
God give me strength.

for everything i have, i'll smile.