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today is a TIRED day. woke up at 12plus, yet still feeling so tired...
supposed to be studying today, but din have much of motivation. ended up doing stupid things like watching tv, playing computer game. exams is just like 33hrs away.! gosh. im like so dead la. percentage completed: 30%? tmr confirm gonna chiong. i needa stop getting distracted.. i hate exams... i shall just get done with it, and enjoy my holidayss...

*6 areas we needa be strong in:

1. Spiritually.
in 2007, im must make the effort to pray more and read the bible more. draw closer to God. i wanna experience God in a greater way this year. LISTEN and OBEY to His words.

2. Practically.
in 2007, i wanna be a great testimony for God in everything that i do. start doing things that i've never done before. impact the people that are around me.

3. Relationally.
in 2007, i hope to be able to communicate better with the people that are around me. learn to walk into their lives. must be interested in their lives. encourage people more, compliment them more.

4. Physically.
in 2007, i must exercise more, be fitter! more trainings to come. go on an diet.

5. Financially.
in 2007, i must learn to have a better control over my money. start planning for my future.

6. Emotionally.
in 2007, i must learn to be less emotional. more happiness, more joy, less crappyness, less tears. learn to let go of past things, and learn to pick up new things.

bad day, bad mood.
irritating migraine.
injured leg, burnt arm.
crappy tots.
lots of tears.

which day could be worse than this? ARGHHHHHH!

all my emo days are kinda back again, which is not a very good thing i supposed? too many tots, causing all the unnecessary tears.

when im emo, i tend to do real stupid things.. ytd when im on my way home, im in like quite deep tots, till i managed to get up a bus without even noeing. only till the bus turned a different route then i realised. end up walking like 2bus stops in the rain...

im gonna prove to myself that all this tots in my mind, will not happen in reality, and its only my stupid feelings... (:

after so many days of stoning at home, i decided to go out for some fresh air. hahaa. went to orchard, then to suntec to look for some of the cg ppl (shiwei, chinpor, zhixian, andrew). jia and i were super late, reach only at about 8. robson and eric left before we reached. anyway, i've got a new pet, a cute lil piggy. its a gift from someone, or maybe a gift for myself. lol. (:

hmm these toys all got special meaning to it. heehee. and only special toys get the previlage to sleep on my bed. (:

sometimes, after spending too much time alone at home, we'll start appreciating the fellowships that we have together. the craps that we talk about, the jokes that we make, and even the small talks. when we spend too much time together, we tend to neglect the people around us. maybe sometimes think that its just a waste of time, i mean its not that we wont be seeing each another for a long period of time, we get to see each another at least twice a week kinda thing. i'll learn to treasure all these quality time spent together. sometimes people can be irritating at times, making rumours here and there. haha. its just human nature i guess, i do that too once in a while. but these are ways to actually start a topic going. too much of coindence lead to lots of trouble. its okie, im not gonna take these things to heart, i'll just ACT BLUR! (:

-I JUST NEEDA BE ME!

finally, i can relax abit and give myself a break. tests are over, projects are done. wads left is the EXAMSS!!! 3 exams to take, lots of worries to make.

do pray for me for my exams, im kinda worried. esp for my bio, something im ~~NEVER~~ good at!
31 jan: Mass Transfer B
5 feb: QAAS
8 feb: Bioprocess Engineering

talked to my lecturer today, then was like rather sian. listening to wad he said to me, it really made me think alot. like how im this semester as compared to the previous semesters. seriously i've slackened alot compared to before. sometimes i feel that i dun wanna go school is cos i wanna avoid jeff. the feeling is so weird. i hope to run as far as possible... :XXXXX
-FROM TODAY ON, I'LL JIAYOU DE! STUDY HARD FOR MY EXAMS AND GET DONE WITH IT! (:

laptop is gonna be returned tmr, im like quite sad, cos have been using it for so long.. HAHA!

-DOWN WITH A FEVER! :(
recently, been feeling rather sick and tired. all my migraine seems to be coming back. guess is because of my lack of sleep. nowadays have been sleeping quite late, earliest about 3am i think. gotta wake up early the next morning. after school, i take a nap, which is like almost the same number of hours then my sleeping time. my sleeping cycle seems to be in a mess.

cell group multiplication is gonna take place in june. n239 is gonna combine with one of sarina's cg in feb, then multiply 3ways. anyway, its gloria's cg. 14members in their cg + 16members from our cg = total 30members. gloria's cg is quite united i guess... hmm dunno whether this multiplication will be a good thing anot. ~~i dun like cg multiplications!~~

PRAYER MEETING TMR~!

Interesting fact #1:
Blogs are meant to be read, not to be listened. *so please dun ask me to read my blog for anyone to listen. (:

Interesting fact #2:
My clock moves faster when others is late, and it moves slower when im late. *my clock goes according to my circumstances. (:

Interesting fact #3:
Everyone should learn not to appear offline, cos thats my previlage. *no copycats please. (:

Interesting fact #4:
Im not a nice girl, im just a naughty girl who likes to bully people. *if u haven realise that, its not too late to know now. run before its too late. (:

Interesting fact #5:
The only way to contact me is through my hp or msn. *if im uncontactable at that moment means im not free to entertain anyone, please try again later. (:

these are 5 interesting facts about me. hmm you just gotta know me A LITTLE BETTER.

visitors on my blog, interesting..! currently 4 offical viewers of the blog, which includes myself, darling, doggy turtle piggy, bestie. yupp.! :)

ytd spent my whole day slacking at home, doing nothing much.. SLACK, when im supposed to be either mugging or project-ing. meet up with jia and shiwei to go woodlands, to find darlingg. she working at the pasar malam there, be boss.. quite cooL la. hmm step into causeway point awhile then jia say needa go off liao, for makeup cg.. then i like abit siann. PSK! but also like bopian, cos sunday he cant attend cg. *jia, dun need feel guilty.. the most u let me bully you more to compensate.. lol. tried some clothes, but never buy. went over to disturb darlingg. chit chat awhile then went home le. my night was totally crappy, thinking of crabs!!! while im crapping, someone's sleeping.. anyway thanks for being nice, thanks for being there.. appreciated. :DDDDD

today went for svc, long message but learnt alot. more things to ponder on..

another week has ended, and next week is the last week before my exams. haven really started studying for my exams. currently, still got one report and one test more. :(
haven been feeling too well this few days, like got some kinda stomach flu. ended up having to go see a doctor, get a mc, and eat medicine. i ~~hate~~ medicines! most of the time i go to the doctor and not eat the medicines, but this time i had no choice. the pain is like super killer. cant even remember the number of times i ran to the toilet today. i pray that i'll be better tmr, so that i can go out!! im almost bored to death just this few days, trying to recuperate. wonder how some turtle can stay home for 2months? guess i would have died by then. :DDDDD

*DAREN AND DIYA WON THE SUPERSTAR THINGY!
expected isnt it? actually carrie's voice also not that bad la, quite powerful. (:

IT FEELS LIKE ~~CRAP!~~ :XXX

recently haven been feeling very good, especially when so many things have been coming towards me at the same time.
sometimes, i do doubt the people around me, cos i'll never noe wad they are thinking at the back of their heads. sometimes, i tend to feel betrayed by the people around me. end up hearing things from some people, yet not even knowing where's the source. i used to take all this things that others say for granted, all i needa do is be myself. at the end of the day, i find that its very difficult, cos it never seems to end.
i needa a break for myself, a little more peace. stop irritating me with information that are not even true at all.
guess people needs to ponder on wad friendship is really all about. for those who have been talking behind people's back, please mind ur own business. wad u do upon others, will be done back to you.

i do thank God, cos i do have a few true friends with me. perhaps im blessed.
these people laugh with me in good times, and cry with me in bad times.
i'll treasure them always. (:

hmm weekend had passed, weekdays are here, school reopened, workload gonna come in, stress building up.

saturday is huiying's bday. went over to her place for celebration. service. went to wisma food republic for dinner. home.

sunday. homeeeeeeeee...

monday. school started. only like 2hours lesson then went home to sleep. feeling like super tired today, somemore got a bad headache. abit no mood for anything... feeling CRAPPY!!!!!

haven really been doing much this few days. basically only stoning and rotting? hahaa. been staying home most of the days since new year's day. too many days of shopping makes me wanna stay home i guess? but the contradicting thing is that home is so boring, cos there's nth much i can really do other than staring at my laptop and tv. hmm im a troublesome ger!!!

had a one day break and went out ytd. gone all the way to novena, met shiwei during her lunch break for lunch at velocity, mos. ate some apple pie which scalded my poor lil finger. :( walked around novena square for awhile then she needa go back office le. so waited for some silly turtle to get out of his camp which is like forever. haha. met him at the mrt station then walked towards united square. united square is like some kiddy place, most of the shops there are like catered for lil kids. level 1 smells like lemon grass!!! rotted at mac and made stars there. at night, we met up with chinpor, andrew, zhiyan to walk around in ps.
-im not being silly when i hide my feelings, cos i dun need the whole world to understand wad im feeling.-

today, PROJECT as promised... still in the progress of trying to get it finished up.

school is starting, which means i dun really have much time left having fun. when school comes, it means exams comes too!!! gonna have to start mugging soon.

30 dec: LAST SERVICE!
its the last service for the year. n239 presented mj an appreciation gift, with the photos of ourselves and our appreciation message to him. im glad that he liked the gift. n239 also presented me with a gift, a notebook, something that i really need. thanks man!

31 dec: COUNTDOWN!
met up with some of my cg members at vivo to fellowship. left for bishan after that to celebrate new year eve at my cousin's hse. played card with jia on the way there. took a bus down from bishan, but end up alight one stop earlier, so haf to walk. had steamboat there, with lots of food, and CRAB! haha. all the kids went over to esplanade to watch the fireworks. the crowd was like WOW! and the place was smelly, squeezy, and foamy! the journey home was always quite interesting cos i only managed to reach home at 3plus am, when i left esplanade at 12plus am.

1 jan: NEW YEAR!
its a new year, its 2007~! wanted to go candice place to meet some ppl for breakfast at 630, in the end cldnt wake up, only went there like 9plus. went candice hse watch tv, play games, sleep. left there at 1230 to go pioneer mall, cos the guys wanna play dota. i dapao mac go up and watch them play. left pioneer mall at abt 4, acc candice to walk ard at jp. finally home to slp.!

27 dec: DARLING'S BIG DAY!
met jia to go darling's hse. gave her the first surprise cos din tell her beforehand. went to bishan to watch happy feet with her. yx and rubez came to join us. after movie, told her jia went toilet, but actually he went to buy cake. brought her to an open space, to wait for jia. gave her the second surprise with the cake!

28 dec: APPRECIATION NIGHT!
our theme was smart casual. everyone was dressed in their jackets and sunglasses. had praise and worship, testimony by gloria, sermon and award presentation. was like nominated for 2awards by dunno who. best cell group member and most serving member. was quite a surprise for me! ended about 1030, then cg celebrated my bday for me. they got me a purple tshirt, and chocolate puff (cos i told rubez i dun wan cake). haha. had supper at simei.

29 dec: MY DAY!
darling and jia came over to give me a surprise at my hse, when my hse is like in a mess. then i like super paiseh. rubez, shiwei, zhiyan, darling and jia shared to get me a jacket and $50. went over to marina square to eat jack's place. darling went off awhile later. she got me a forever friends bear. super cute! at night, went over to ps to meet my cg members. they dedicated a song for me, so sweet! after that, went over to mr bean cafe, andrew got me a cake. lucky not much of sabo! thanks to those who celebrated my bday for me, u guys made my day special. (:

its been a long longg time since i last updated! like 20days i guess? im too busy handling missions maybe? haha..

18-19 dec: DINNER AND DANCE DAY!
had a great time at pan pac with some of my classmates. took alot of photos! had mac like 3am in the morning. guess we are all crazy!

20-22 dec: CRUISE!
shopping at malaysia.

23-25 dec: CHRISTMAS!
for the first time, i attended 3svcs, drama was good! candlelight for 3times, the view's so beautiful! took alot of photos, had alot of fun. super blessed this year, received like tons and tons of presents.

25 dec: CHRISTMAS PARTY!
played some angel and mortal game. my mortal is chinpor, got him 2 sketch books. thank god he likes them. my angel is jiahui! hmm im not surprised that its him, but im surprised that he got me a bracelet. its nice, thanks! =DD fellowship at esplanade, with truth or dare.

...-26 dec: MISSION!
for a very special person. (: