disintegrate

today spend most of my time at home.
went out to eat lunch with my bro and dad.
then came home to vaccuum my floor and tidy my room abitt.
shiwei came my house. went to jp eat long john for dinner..
wanted to c whether got my slipper, in the end oso dun haf.. siann..

revival meeting was really good today.
was about FIRE FOR GOD!
my fire for God is there. but the question is how much fire do i have? i wanna have that fire that will burn in the holy passion for God.

today im really angry with 2 things.
one is cos i dun like others to always tell me wad to do and control my life. i feel that my life is by the decisions tat i make, and wad God wans me to do. but yet y is it that others always like to tell me to do this and that.
the other is cos i dun like the atmosphere this someone gives. this atmosphere always affects the people ard him.

wad does God wan me to do?
is it to be angry? NOO!!! thats not in God's mind.
God asked me. wad can i do for Him..
can i give up my slp and my free time juz to worship and pray to Him? can i sacrifice all juz to go after Him? do i wanna seek Him and His kingdom.
i teared.
i needa wake up! i needa be stronggg!!!!
there's so many things God wan me to do.
God doesnt wan me to give up. He wans me to keep going on, keep trying..
my heart longs for Him. my heart longs for the heart of many.
i pray that the ppl ard me are happy..
but it seems so far away.
i wanna impact their lifes. i wan them to walk in the vision God placed in their life.
wad can i do? i can pray and fast for them. but its really up to them whether anot they wanna take my advice.
i wont give up, but will they give up?
im putting faith and trusting God abt it.
i need strength. i need wisdom.
thank God for wad He had done in my life..
burden for cell group!! unity!!!
im gonna get it done! i needa get it done.
unity is so important.
arent we one body of Christ? thats y we needa stand as one, and not as individuals. we gotta move towards that same vision, and move together.
i wan the Holy Spirit. move in me like nv before....
im gonna start moving forward.. im not gonna take steps backward anymore..
i'll rejoice for great is our God! i'll give Him all the praise...
i live for You, alone. i love You, Jesus. =DDDD