disintegrate

rate

也许我一直害怕有答案
也许爱情仅在风里打转
离开释怀
很短暂又重来
有时候自问自答

我不要困难把我们击散
我责备自己那么不勇敢
遗憾没有到达
拥抱过还是害怕
用力推开你我一人留下

有一束光
那瞬间是什么痛得刺眼
你的视线是谅解
为什么舍不得熄灭
我逆着光却看见
那是泪光
那力量
我不想再去抵挡
面对希望逆着光
感觉爱存在的地方
一直就在我身旁

我以为无路后退
反复证明这份爱有多不对
背对着你如此漆黑
忍住疲惫
睁开眼打开窗
才发现你就是光芒!

光芒
你是光芒!

here i am again. updating my blog.
this week is a really slack week for me, cos i've only been to work for one and a half day.
half day on monday, mc on tuesday, full day on wednesday, and leave on thursday and friday.
staying at home can be a good thing and a bad thing. erm, it means that i can have more rest to recover from my irritating sickness, but it also means that my brain is more free to think of wadever craps and rubbish it wans.
for the second time, i went to see the doctor. this is probably one of the longest time that im ever sick. this time, i had even more medicines than before. previously, its only 3 (for my fever, cough and flu), this time its 4 (for just my cough and flu). for people that know me well, they would definitely know how much i really dislike eating medicine. both times, i had to be forced by my super caring dad to see a doctor.
i've been reading a chinese love novel for the past few days. its a real sad story, yet true love is revealed. it shows how strong love can be, at times of need. the ending concludes that time and love is not necessary proportional. thou the period of time that was spend may be alot, it doesnt mean that the love is strong. to this, i totally agreed.
coming up, it's weekends again. im gonna be busy again. but im excited, its time when i get to hear God's word, get to feel His strong presence, and get to fellowship with my loved members.
today is suwan's birthday. suwan is someone that i watch her grow up. she's just like my lil sister. a pretty, smart and elegant dancer. its been a long while since i last seen her. im glad to c her integrated into HOGC, doing well in her church now, rising up slowly but surely. suwan, someday i'll see you dance again. missing you lots man! HAPPY BIRTHDAY LITTLE SISTER! (:

MY EVERYTHING

The loneliness of nights alone
the search for strength to carry on
my every hope has seemed to die
my eyes had no more tears to cry
then like the sun shining up above
you surrounded me with your endless love
Cuz all the things I couldn't see are now so clear to me

You are my everything
Nothing your love won't bring
My life is yours alone
The only love I've ever known
Your spirit pulls me through
When nothing else will do
Every night I pray
On bended knee
That you will always be
My everything

Now all my hopes and all my dreams
are suddenly reality
you've opened up my heart to feel
a kind of love that's truly real
a guiding light that'll never fade
there's not a thing in life that I would ever trade
for the love you give it won't let go
I hope you'll always know

You are my everything
Nothing your love won't bring
My life is yours alone
The only love I've ever known
Your spirit pulls me through
When nothing else will do
Every night I pray
On bended knee
That you will always be

My everything
You're the breath of life in me
the only one that sets me free
and you have made my soul complete
for all time (for all time)

You are my everything (you are my everything)
Nothing your love won't bring (nothing your love won't bring)
My life is yours alone (alone)
The only love I've ever known
Your spirit pulls me through (your spirit pulls me through)
When nothing else will do (when nothing else will do)
Every night I pray (I pray)
On bended knee (on my knee)
That you will always be
be my everything

ya i know, its been ages since i last update. not cos i choose not to update, just that my lappy is down, so couldnt post anything. not becos "someone" not around k (refering to the tag post)

yupp that someone is back in sg. can say that im glad, cos its been one month. we catch up quite a bit during the whole week while he's on leave. for everything, thank you, you silly one.

so many things have passed tis few weeks. benny hinn svc was really powerful. its the time when u get to see God moving mightily. the blind began to see, the mute began to talk, the lame began to walk. thou it's tiring, im glad that im part of the choir. the whole weekend changed me alot, and it realy strengthened my faith. cant believe myself falling in the presence of God for 4times just in one service, and its the first time i experienced wad holy laughter is all about. COOL! (:

anddd the fact that i've been so sick. have been taking leave since last thursday. went for work today, but cos wasnt really feeling well, my supervisor persuaded me to go home and rest.

chatted with mj on sat over sth im really bothered about. somehow i felt as thou im being betrayed by dunno who. but perhaps that person did it out of concern. made me ponder on some stuff and i wrote him an essay, 487 words.

cell group was great! during worship, i asked God, why why all the things are happening in my life. i really felt very tired, and felt like giving up, but the other half of me is telling me to keep on going on. God spoke a word to me. PERSEVERANCE. felt really encouraged, then i wrote that word on my notebook. who knows, perseverance was part of the cg sermon! ptl! in times of need, it's You i seek, always. thank You for the works in my life. (:

haven really been feeling well recently.
down with a fever, and migraine is back.
i guess it's due to the lack of sleep, and the staring of the computer.
really bad for my health.

wednesday i took half day off just to meet up with jane.
realised that jeff is actually still in sg.
in my mind was "oh no!" cos i really dun feel like seeing him.

thursday time past really quickly in office.
finished work like 2hours before i end work, when everyone's not done yet.
slack around doing all the 'you de, mei you de', do inspection ard office.

hmm today is easter once again.
i received salvation on this day two years ago.
which means im two years old in the Lord.
drama was good! alot of special effects this year, and they brought out a real snake!

kinda pissed off today cos of sth.
this is the first time after so long that i really felt like whacking someone.
alot of unexplainable mixed feelings.
and got a lecturing for nothing!
if there's anything that others are not happy about me, please say it in front of me, dun hide behind my back and gossip!
convince me that im in the wrong, otherwise dun anyhow accuse others!!!

thursday
prayer meeting was really good.. atmosphere was really strong.. but i kinda lose my voice at the end of it.

friday
choir full dress rehearsal. went thru the previous 20 songs, and learnt another 20 songs. cant really get the new songs cos only like sing once thru. had to sit on the floor throughout, leg cramp.

saturday
mark conner svc. was late, cos was at my aunt's place playing pool till i forgot about the time. overall was good, talked about the 5 ways of connecting with God. i think im the relational, and the charismatic type. din fellowship cos i needa head to bishan. took train with jiale. the whole journey super paiseh, cos he keep making fun of me. i wanna throw away my jacket le. jia called back from taiwan, talked awhile then end up no reception kana cut off.

sunday
combine cg outing. total of 15people. 5 from e247, 10 from n239. as usual, i got thrown into the sea. anyway it always happen, so nth new. played vball. they made me dive to save alot of balls, end up now whole body aching. i kinda having rash. =[ ate at food republic for dinner. blessed zhiyan and huiying for lunch and yenling for dinner. yeah! its always good to bless others than to receive. shopped ard then headed home.

monday
wasnt really feeling well. kinda feeling sick, and aching everywhere. my muscles all feel overstretched. but today i travel like crazy. from novena to ps, on search for chamelon, but it closed down already. from ps to raffles city, meet jiale and his friend clarence. from raffles city to tiong bahru, went with shiwei to buy comb then the other two went off first. from tiong bahru to jurong east, to meet with jiale. the both of us go watch mr bean la. super crappy show!!! from jurong east to home, home sweet home.