disintegrate

finally, one entire week of trauma is over.
p5 camp is over.
yes and the zoo trip is over.
the zoo trip has gotten me at least 30 mosquito bites on my legs within 1.5hr.(im serious!!!)
at one time, i could like see 4 mosquitoes land on my leg.
so i was trying my best to kill as many as possible.
i was located at the garden pavillion.
thou the place has good view, toilets, and is a good resting place.
but its infested with mosquitoes as it is so near the drains and ponds.
luckily managed to get insect repellent from one of my pupils, otherwise i wont be able to imagine how my leg wil have been after i left that place.
most prob it would have been totally disfigured.

last week happened to be one of my most terrible week.
in terms of physically, emotionally and spiritually.
too many things were going on at the same time.
too much for me to handle.
fell ill and managed to earn myself a day of rest for me.

emotionally wise, i had some issues with jia.
thankfully it is somewad settled between us.
just that we are still waiting for mj' reply.
other than that, everything is back to normal.
really thank those who were there to support me thru this tough period, esp my cg ppl.
i know i din really share, cos i just din wan to get so many ppl involved.

it felt really bad knowing that you are about to lose something that mean so much to you.
like wad they always say.
we will only learn to treasure the things that we have only when we lose them.
maybe i just need to learn to appreciate more.
always i told myself that i must be a strong girl.
i'll learn to go thru things all by myself.
apparently its so tough, i must learn to share.
i must learn to communicate more, and understand more.
listen more too.
im still in the process of learning. =]