disintegrate

had short prac session for FYP today.
only like did for 4hrs? 5 experiments..
after that went home watch tv and anime.. slp!!!!
nth much la. practically slack the whole day.

checking out attendance for bro mj.
SHI ZHI LU KOU outreach.
as usual, the members are always out of reach.
only a few replied. so ended up needa call up the members again.
till now, 6members and 3friends goingg.
guess bro mj would be quite sad to hear only so lil of us.
pray that there'll be more to come.
still waiting for the reply of the other half of the cg..

have been discussing on wad to buy for someone's bday.
then zhiyan was telling me that we shld share money as a cg to buy blades.
im like ARE U CRAZY? doesnt he noe that most of our cg ppl have financial needs? doesnt he noe its not cheap?
i mean if its gonna be a personal gift im fine with it. but a cg gift??
hmm..
finally understood how darling is feeling.
esp when u have totally different views with the cgh.

supposedly... jia, zy, rubez, me were to b the core of the cg.
then slowly bringing the others closer to us.
it was our vision i guess? for cell group unity.
but i feel the four of us splitting apart.
now im only closer to rubez.
the bonding between jia and zy seems so far away.
our thinking are no longer the same.
everything seemed to have changed, everythings seemed so different.
why?? i seriously wished i had an answer.
LORD, i pray for this friendship. that we'll be able to move together as one.
we're living for only one God. =l