disintegrate

i have been thinking of cg ppl
zhiyan, jiahui, rubez, meiping, wanlin, zhihao, chimpo, roy, weekiat, samuel, gary, guowei.

zhiyan. cg helper.
a person that is trying so hard to please everyone.
yet always receiving shoot backs
i admire him alot.cos he stands strong even aft al the attacks
think i wont b able to handle that.
someone that im close to in cg.
really enjoy toking to him sometimes.
*to zhiyan:
thanks for being there for me.providing me with the diff kinds of advices.always there to b my listening ear.

jiahui. cg guitarist.
a person that is always in this own world. daydreaming i think.
can play the guitar really well. have high expectations on things.
someone that i used to be v close to.
yet now not so close.
i always nv knew to tok to him abt.so there's always a moment of silence betw us.
im forever saying the wrong things to him whenever i open my mouth.
*to jiahui:
hey sorry.think im kinda saying the wrong things to u all the time. hope u wont mind or be angry with me ya?really hoping to understand u better yet i dunno how to.so many things i wanna share with u yet oso dunno how to.think i kinda dun haf the courage to speak to u...really sorryy...im another one that failed u, i guess...

rubez. my laopo.
one of the closest to me in cg.
a person that faces situations with me together.
willing to listen to my problems and provide me with advices
someone that went thru alot that others nv gone.
have the ability to empathize others.
*to rubez:
great noeing u cos u brightens up my day. learnt alot from u. so thank you. for making me feel important. u are loved by me! <3

the rest?
think i dun really noe them that well..
shows that i really got to make more effort to get to noe them.
meiping and wanlin are nice sis!juz gotta tok to them more. spend more time with them.